Sometimes I am promiscuous

A stranger, he just left

Fallen victim to temptation

Desire no more bereft

 

Is this what they call defeat

Because I don’t feel cheap

I see it as our nature

As humans when we cheat

 

We set aside monogamy

In the distance, we get weak

Faced alone with demons

A thrill ego will seek

 

So I tell myself I’ll play it safe

Let strangers hold me tight

And when I’m with the man I love

That’s when I’ll make it right

 

I’m sort of in a relationship

But then I’m sort of not

Inside fear I find myself

In the thrill of getting caught

 

I’ve chosen this long-distance thing

With an ex from long before

Then I find a one night stand

Because I can’t have more

 

Deep down I know the real reason

I’ve struggled with since youth

A victim to society

Their roles never my truth

 

My issue lies in intimacy

Towards those I give my heart

And learning how to love myself

I don’t know where to start

 

Life always will repeat itself

Unannounced at your front door

Dressed up as a past love affair

Same illusion like before

 

Though you may have grown

And blossomed on your path

You’ll never know your one true self

If you can’t let go the past