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just a small boy

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just a small boy

swathed in night's silence 

weaves dreams of innocence


worlds away from

the nightmare that

will break apart the 

completed jigsaw of his life 


watch him 

jolted awake by

the noise of familiar voices


see him 

out of bed, bleary-eyed,

moving unsteadily in blackness

 

.........."mummy, mummy"..........


look at him 

at the top of the stairs

threadbare ted his only comfort

barefoot, starting to shiver


voices getting louder and clearer


"DON'T GO....I'll .......kill myself...."

"....out of my way.......I'm going....."

...........................................SLAM

 

imagine

a five-year old waiting 

for night's thousand eyes to see

for walls to hear

for pictures to find words

 

just a small boy 

too young to know grief 

old enough to feel pain

 

he never said goodbye

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Paul Waring

Fri 17th Feb 2017 09:14

Thanks Col, what a touching comment about the awful sadness of losing your father so young and your attachment to threadbare ted.

Indeed, childhood can be a scary journey. I remember being on child and adolescent placement during my clinical psychology training and discussing a sad case like this with my supervisor. It led to a broader discussion about grief and suffering and he said to me "Paul, we are all damaged goods" and I suppose that's true.

I hope the aid agencies hear your wise words too.

Thank you Col, what a treasure it is to share with you on here.

Paul

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Fri 17th Feb 2017 07:46

like the small boy in your poem my teddy didn't have a name - in fact he was always referred to as threadbare tedbear. I lost my father at the age of 7 (heart attack at 38) and threadbare tedbear was my companion. He is still around watching over me although we don't talk as often as we used to. Childhood can be a scary journey with many dark corners and you have captured this well Paul.

as an aside, I hope aid agencies give something cuddly to all little children in need.

Col

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