If i could grow wings and fly away, i would fly straight to heaven and get on my knees and pray. I would beg for forgiveness from the good Lord above, and all i would ask is to simply feel loved. I would bow my head down and give up my soul, i would pray to find happiness in any role, a child, a young woman, a mother, a friend...if only true joy i would feel in the end. But for me its a struggle no matter which road i choose, i try to force a smile, but its only a ruse. Some day the Lord will take me and those wings i will sprout and then finally i will feel that love on my way out.....

By Heidi