There are people in me that you don't even understand

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,...

There is way too many to define

Are you okay they always say

I'm okay I always say but really

I'm not going through a phase as y'all always say

My life is a disgrace

I can't fix my face

And my mask will always label I'm okay

I can't tell you how I feel

Because all you do is spill

And there is nothing in the world left more to enjoy

I have envy towards those moments

I live in despair

I don't fit in

I can't live in this world where everything is not right

And everything gives me a fright

I have no rights

All rights are taken away from me

And there is nothing left of me

Because the suction cup has sucked me up

To where there is no me left

Where I don't know who I am

Where I belong

What song shall belong

To what shall I do

Where shall I move

How shall I move about

About life

About love

About feeling

About choices

About chances

About opportunities

About…...nevermind I'm okay

 

 

This was the feeling while I was stuck in the rain where the sun did not exist in the midst of darkness but now light has revealed itself so now i am better because of the change of the weather that means now i have a shelter to where there is no more scarce feeling because now i have strength where I can live life with a meaning and I have something to live for which is for me because I am powerful and what I do reflects on me and nobody else because I live for myself but I gain power when I have a partner because it's just another person to help me take on life and make sure it's great because there will be a meaning and someone will help me find it!