Sat down in the GP room ,hoping if I told him everything straight they’d help me soon . Pain management is the place I need to be but instead they insist another pill or three . I’m not wanting to be off on the sick line , I just want to manage my pain and finally feel fine .  

Just take this one and you’ll feel brand new , it’ll take the pain away and you’ll love everything you do . Come back  in a few months and see how you feel ,if nothing changes we will make a deal . 

 I’m sat back doubting the pill he’s just prescribed , wondering how I can’t just be referred to pain management without being what feels bribed . I’m sitting here with physical pain if I take this pill it’s going to mess with my mental health and brain . 

Why is this considered to be alright ? 
Why does it feel it’s me against the world in this fight ?  . 
I work hard to pay my bills , I’m busy with my family I can’t afford the side effects from these pills . One day I’m determined to manage my pain , I’ll be feeling alot better and hopefully helping others that are going through the same .