if i could love you in a good way

i would do so; the best i could 

but the sun doesn’t even set at the same time for us 

so i’ll continue to rot in this room 

until my last summer here turns to fall 

i would love you so dearly 

but i love you from afar 

and yet you still find a way to overwhelm my mind 

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i apologize for the way i treat you

i warn you for the things i’ll do wrong 

you tell me this won’t end

or whatever ends, 

we will carry out through our hearts 

and never be spoken aloud 

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i can not help but cry 

the sorrow in my body overflows 

can i ever set this feeling down?

i have no where to put it but towards you 

and you twist it back into that cold spring night 

the tears stutter and fade 

you’ll wish me a goodnight 

i’m convinced they’ve stopped 

but i’m left alone again

and they have not