Your eyes are dreamy

They remind me of the Sunrise

At the ocean

Your lips are soft and luscious

I like the way you lick them when you talk

I wonder how they taste

Back to your eyes

They're so expressive

Rather you squint

Or you wink

Those eyes can tell you

A story

Without you ever speaking

On what you think

Your nose is fat

It reminds me of our Ancestors

Your esscence reminds me of

Home

I'm not ashamed to admit

That sometimes when

I'm alone

I touch myself to the thought of you

And I might let out

A moan

I dream of you consistently

Your skin reminds me of

Kemet

And the rich vitalizing

Silk that fertilized

The ground

Your hands are

Big and firm

Hard working

Protector

Warrior

And your voice possesses

A boistrous sound

I can't help but wonder

How your touch would feel

Against my body

My intention with this poem

Isn't to be naughty

But then again

I never told anyone 

That I was nice

I just need to express myself

These thoughts pass

Through my mind

Not once, Not twice

But many times

Sometimes constantly

Am I suppose

To keep them to myself?

To push them away

Or to suppress them

Would mean me shutting

Down my heart

And I don't want to live like that

Any longer

I'd much rather my flower

Burst all over your shaft

Like confetti

It doesn't matter to me

If you aren't ready

To join my party

I'm still going to send out 

The invitation

And continue to admire

From afar

No longer in secret

My conscious free of

Doubt and what if's 

Because

I have always remembered you

Since before I consciously knew you

My soul recognized your esscence

Before my eyes recognized your face

Cognizance at first sight

A feeling so deep

Words are hard to express

But still I'll try

With these limitless emotions

I posses

For you

I wish you could see

What I see

When I look at you

I sometimes 

See myself

That's why I get angry with you

When you allow yourself to be

Treated less than you deserve

I take is personally

I'm sorry 

I don't care about 

The difference in our age

Our hearts still beat

The same 

They still pump blood

Throughout our body

Our veins are

Orchestrated the same

My heart beats for you

I don't tell you I love you

Because it makes your

Cheeks turn pink

Have you ever seen a Black Man blush?

It's the most beautiful thing

My soul is old

And it knows that

You are my soulmate

The ancestors revealed it to me

In January 2021

The power of our connection is limitless

I'm not writing this

To place uneccessary pressure on you

Or to confuse you

But to express how I feel

These feelings are real

You live in my mind

Rent free

And when I get angry

Or lash out

I too am struggling

Because what I feel

Isn't matching what I see

Even though looks can be deceiving

It seems like lately no matter how much

I try to push you out my mind

And stay away from you

I always end up

Being led back to you

Your higher self sending out a SOS

"I got a crush on you'

Playing on the loud speaker

In Home Depot 

'Don't you forget about me'

Playing on the radio

In the car

At the pizza place

We probably go grab a slice

At the same time

So with that being said

I won't say I love you

But

To take care of yourself

And it doesn't matter

Even if forever

We remain

Physically

Emotionally

And mentally

Apart

Because

We are spiritually unified

And your esscence has rooted

A very special place

In my heart

I love you

And I'm your biggest fan

I am always rooting for you

And I love that you're a manly man

Don't ever stop being you

You got this

Keep going