I hide behind my shine smile

I hide behind my ocd and cleaning haddits 

A addict that's me

Full of fear and a huge need to succeed but a great haddit of fucking it Al up

So complex and conflicted so willing to please 

Oh I hide behind by perfect Hazel eyes 

Behind my cigarette smoke 

Please don't get to close 

You might just find a boy with no piece feeling like his no place 

I take issue where's theirs none becasue fear has its dirty grip around my soul 

Am scared of all outcomes 

If it all works out or if it truns to shit 

I still have me to deal with 

Oh my dreams haumt me 

And am struggling to know how am going to go on!!