The Hard Goodbye

How can we both, finally say goodbye 
When all I think, you’ll ask is why 
I gave up caring and supporting you 
When really fostering is all I do.
Now your gone, my hearts a flutter 
Emotions in words, come out as a stutter 
I think did I fail? Or did you prevail? 
My faults and mistakes are not yours to bear 
You have enough trauma yourself to wear 
I felt I was lost, like tears in rain 
I wasn’t enough, to support you in pain 
So I let you go, so better you could live 
You needed much more,  that I couldn’t give 
Am I happy, am I free? … alas but No 
My guilt is like, the death of Banquo  
So I hope you realise, why I said goodbye   
As If I didn’t, I would have died 
So I left you with this, my hard goodbye