when is it all going to end?

when are these thoughts,

going to shed?

 

I can’t stand another day with you not here

but there

inside my head

 

it makes me sick

love sick

 

I am afraid of not controlling what’s

internal

when there is no such thing as

external

 

if only you knew

the pain, the agony, the hurt

this has caused me

 

it frightens me that

I still lay, here

at AM thinking of all the things we could have been

when you might be laying, there

only to then dissapear 

 

and now it is the end 

I am stronger, wiser and bolder

 

you were my soulmate

the wrong soulmate

so now, it is fair

 

my heart is too pure

for someone like you

 

if only you knew