Blame

I blame my parents

Their fears made me lame.

There were no rooms for mistakes  

Today I am a perfectionist,

An Idealist of every aspects

 

I blame my parents

For the OCD, today chaos frightens me.

Beliefs shoved down my throat.

For all my insecurities about relationships,

Today I chase what I can’t have.

For the lecture instead of advice,

Today any criticism is hard to bare.

 

I blame myself

For not being good enough

For not being an ideal son.

For not reaching their standards,

Rebellious, stubborn with both horns,

I rebuked their rules and laws.

Today all my flaws are laid before my anxiety.

It’s all remorse, I blame myself for not trying hard enough.

I blame myself for not fighting for myself.

 

I blame myself

For not voicing out.

Parents tried their best,

Thinking the best for them was best for me.

All I wanted was to live my life.

Not this in and out to one destination every day.

All I wanted to be was feel alive.

I was caged in my own life. I raged at everyone.

They tried, and I tried, who is to blame in the end?.