Let me hold, once more
That special place.
Can't I one more time curl within your embrace?
Or how shall I comprehend
Suddenly so different from my own?
Suddeness? What suddeness is this,
That many months existed?
Disbelief? What disbelief can live
Inside this certain knowledge?
Or shall I let false words
Echo around my mind another moment?
Give me back that certainty,
Proud faith in your love.
Can't I still be stunned by your measure of my worth?
Or shall I only wonder
Where it went,
All that feeling lost into the void.
Hope? What hope for what you don't want?
Desire? What desire?
To be undesirable again?
Or shall I bury my future too,
In the ashes of our past?