You see,
I smile now because im at peace.
I know who and what I am,
At this stage, now I'm finally free.
Multiple complex layers, to this methodical man.

The seeds planted to destroy me,
The burdens over me that held me down.
I felt ashamed and morally disgraced,
But I had turned that shit back round.

I felt lost and deluded,
Felt ashamed and foolish.
Through my journey I went through shit.
But to be honest, I kinda got used to it.

I had a break through, a second wind.
The joy of life and what it brings.
Through pain i finally found peace.
Found the pieces, that completes me.

Now i understand,
Anything I had lost i wasn't meant to have.
I used to have a hard time to accept this but,
I wouldn't want anything that belongs to someone else.
Clearly things weren't meant to be.
But I used to burden myself with the thoughts.
"Why can it not be mine."
"When these are the things I need the most"

In a place of solitude,
In a place I can no longer be found.
I would cross oceans for some still.
But to others, im no longer bound.

Freed from all this suffering and pain.
Freed from hardship and discredited my name.
Freed from the expectations that killed my soul.
Now beauty in life is now for me to hold.

Its very rare to meet someone like me.
A dark horse in his ways.
I would still cross oceans for some.
Those who never left, but stayed.

Stayed on the sidelines,
But supported me in my journey.
Those people know who they are,
They'll know if their worthy.

Of my devotion and time.
Cross oceans to make them smile.
Be there if their ever in need.
They'll always hold a piece of me.

Oceans I would cross for them.
Oceans I know they'll cross for me.
In an ocean im no longer drowning in,
Finally my new life now begins