It's romance that I despise
There's an extreme hatred rooted deep Inside 
I watch the way the universe caves in with intense devotion and in envious disdain, I roll my eyes. 
My attitude wasn't always this way
But after painful memories and plenty of time, I've grown a bit too comfortable with solitude to break my selfish habits. 
Dedicated to independence,
I find peace in my lonesome complaints.
For the fear of heartbreak 
I'll run away. 
I decline every smooth, one-lined invitation
Refuse all opportunities to stumble in an intoxicated passion down the hall. 
I'm the ruler of this life I live and I'm better on my own. 
But you,
You Philosophical heartthrob
You make me feel
I blur the lines of my freedom when we talk.
Why is it you that I have this connection to?
In case you ever wonder
I'd like to run my fingers through your hair and learn the entirety of your being. Body, mind, and soul. 
I want to know the way you taste as well as your darkest thoughts.
Let me be the one to take all your anxiety and trade it for tranquility.
I wish to hear your laughter and make it my new favorite song. 
But I can't,
It's a silly idea to have
You are there and I am here
And quite honestly
I'm much too headstrong to let you in.