How do we do this

One day 

After another

Of same 

People

Rooms

Food 

Clothes

Conversations

When what should we have for dinner becomes

The highlight of the day

And a three mile walk becomes

The only reason to get dressed 

At all

 

How do we do this 

How long do we do this

It’s like labor 

The worst part 

Is not knowing how long 

it will last

 

The sun is up later

The air is growing warmer 

But there are no plans to

Go to the beach 

Or

Visit with friends

Or

Stop off at one of those

Outdoor restaurants

To see

And be

Seen

 

I wake up each day

And think

Yay 

I don’t have anywhere to be

But then find myself

Sitting around

Playing word puzzles

On my phone

For 

Hours

Because there is nothing I want to do

What, clean the basement?

Umm there is a reason I had not done that before all this.

And surprisingly, finding that it is not

Because 

I was 

Too busy

 

And then I wonder

Well what is really different 

Now?

What was I doing

That was all that

Important 

Before?

I’m still working

I’m still chasing the laundry dishes food prep vaccuum the floor 

That I was

Before 

 

So what did I used to do?

See friends?

Do errands

Go to the gym

Shop 

 

It feels like 

Maybe 

I wasn’t 

Really doing anything

Important

Anyway

 

So where does that leave me now?

Where does that leave me if we ever get back to normal? 

What is

Important?