i want you to know i have always loved you so. 

my intetions were pure eventhough.

this live didnt happen the way i wanted it to.

i was supposed to be worlds best dad my choices made that not true

but that does not change the strength of my love.

and for you i would lay down my life.

take a bullet to my chest or get run threw with a knife.

because we made you to live 

but my parenthood i could not give 

and as much as i wanted to be there every minute of every day.

my choices i made were set in stone by a higher power so my path i couldnt sway 

i know its hard for you to understand it now 

my heart will never change, you all have made me so very proud 

and when you are older i pray no resentment will grow 

because the hardest moment was the day i had to let you go 

i knew i was sick and my lifestyle could not accomodate 

I send all my love... Please be good for your new parents by the time im better I'm afraid it will be much to late.