Poetry Blogs (2010, unrequited love)
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I think to myself on late night lonely trains
Watching the city lights fade into the distance and wishing
If only you were here to see it, too
There are worse people to adore than your best friend
Worse people to know everything about you
and you of them
I know you
Moments you regret
Private jokes and unspoken secrets
Tuesday 12th November 2019 8:40 am
(apologies to the similar-sounding John Hegley piece also titled "I need you")
I need you
Like Dracula needs a neck to suck
Like Hannibal lector needs victims to cook
Like Jason needs the 13th day
Like Micheal Myers needs teens to slay
I need you
like werewolves need a moon to howl
I want to be kept "rock hard"
forever in your medusa scowl
I need you
Like Vincent Price needs bats ...
Thursday 31st October 2019 10:31 am
I had one of those dreams again, the ones where we were just friends. You had no idea you were my every heartbeat.
We were on a trip somewhere, back in high school or something. You had a crush on the foreign exchange student I was rooming with. I was barely tolerating her. You invited us to hang out though, and I couldn't deny any second spent near you. We stayed late in your room listening...
Friday 11th October 2019 11:30 am
Via the phone
When I heard your voice
Having a friendly tone--
At long last you have won--
My diffidence and anxiety gone
An electrifying ecstasy
Charged my heart's zone,
Who fate was
To ceaselessly lament and moan.
The vein inundating feeling
You evoked, anon,
Percolated down to every bone
To each love thirst
Friday 23rd August 2019 8:57 am
i'm in love with someone.
Sadly they do not know it, but i do.
Her beauty is rich in a loveless world.
Her smile eases the thoughts of negativity around me,
the gentle conversation excites my universe.
to be in their company even for a brief few seconds can take a mile off my day.
Then she leaves.
Thursday 20th June 2019 1:25 pm
"you" are the distant moon
Bright and shiny
yet, so far...away
and I'm the tide,
your smallest change
cause turmoil in me
What I forgot, is that,
the moon is destined
to love the pretty stars
not the distant earth
which is so close, yet,
Tuesday 28th May 2019 3:13 pm
I'm missing you..
like the sea misses the shore,
Like the mountains miss the bluebells
in the cold,
like the earth misses the sun at night
the waves should learn
to wait till the tide is high,
& the mountains must know
to endure till spring,
& earth till the dawn arrives.
Wednesday 15th May 2019 10:03 am
I've gone back to writing unrequited love poetry. apparently, I'm told everyone likes those.
"I sit alone and think of you"- a song by Jandek
"I've spent my whole surrounded/alone"- opening lines from the song "unconditional" by The Bravery
"Alone but not lonely"- a line from Tired out by Buck 65
"the smile I have is only skin deep"- a line from The Joker in Batman (1989)
Wednesday 24th April 2019 5:15 pm
I barely Know You
I don't "really" know you.
When we met,
We hit it off and by that I mean-
You told me all your secrets.
I related with you.
I felt for you.
I saw something you were unable to see...
Cleaning, running around after Cam and the vist after-
there was, another baby in that perfect belly.
See, I know you're lonely.
You feel under appreciated...
Wednesday 6th March 2019 9:56 pm
He ghosted me,
then I ghosted too.
spreads like the flu.
Leaves the ghosted
feeling sick and blue
when a loved one
suddenly starts ignoring you.
You haven't a clue
what to do.
So, you stay in bed,
with the covers over your head
wishing you were dead
so you can get some relief
from the ghosting disease.
Eventually, you get up
Wednesday 13th February 2019 5:06 pm
beyond the grave.
helps me understand,
our encounter was
never about us.
It was about our muses
intertwined in the
world of words.
We were denied
the lasting passion
we searched for
so we could write
our soul songs
Sunday 20th January 2019 4:35 pm
I thought that you cared,
that you cared more than a friend.
Now when I see you you're all over him,
now I'm letting the darkness in.
I remember when you were all over me,
I sang you lullabies to help you sleep.
You held my hand when I felt down,
held me in your arms to pull me up.
We were editing our little story,
you put your pen down and I start to worry.
You scrumbled your paper ...
Tuesday 2nd October 2018 12:15 am
I still loved you but I walked away.
I know you still love me, but I'm not comming back.
You still try to reach me, I know you do.
Every text you send I read, never ending your silent plead.
I know you're hurting I'm too,
but I know I can't be with you.
You were my everything I hope you know.
now I can't give you roses of red colour.
I was hurting, my heart was bleeding,
I didn't let ...
Friday 28th September 2018 4:11 pm
You'll never know how much I want you
You'll never know how much I need you
You'll never know how much it hurts
to see you in his arms.
Why I pretend not to see,
all these texts you send to me.
Why I decline all your invites,
when I used to see you every time.
He knows I'm your best friend,
he asked about you again.
There's just one thing he doesn't know,
you're the one my heart fo...
Friday 28th September 2018 4:03 pm
I’m losing my mind.
Don’t you understand?
I’m desperately reaching out for your hand.
Don’t leave me hanging, slipping, falling…
down into the endless abyss of darkness,
Never destined to land.
You’ve saved me once before,
But this time there are no safety ropes.
I’m free-falling, plummeting, going down…
My only hope Is for you to save me now.
I’m losing my ...
Monday 18th June 2018 2:59 pm
This is me
I still can’t quite believe it’s true
It hasn’t been
too long ago
when I stood up and let you know
I wanted you
to hear from me
that I loved you, you said:
I’ve known a while
it’s not your fault, not mine, but “us”
is not something that’s happening
my words are painful, but they’re real
I’m sorry, I ap...
Wednesday 23rd May 2018 2:49 pm
my breath left me
on a day of cold and color
against your turned back
white face, white mist
under the beat of your wings
singing the song of the swan
snow falls down
through a world of stolen breath
a feather finds its way
beside a snowflake
curled in my palm
i wish on a white and silent world
that you would take my heart
the way you took my lungs
Sunday 11th March 2018 7:20 pm
Words, the only thing that connects me to you
Through words I figured out the things that you do
Words you want to say to the girls that you loved that are too good to be true
Words that I read just like the lyrics of my favorite songs
I figured their is a list of the girls in your heart
You fall too easy something that is common with my heart
I don't know how many times I hoped for an us
Monday 11th September 2017 2:44 pm
A warmth in her blossomed,
He made her smile from her heart.
She was too scared to tell him,
So she played the friendship part.
An unknown feeling flourished within,
Her guard unfolded and withered.
He stole her affection like a thief at night,
Replaced with emotions she tried to fight.
The attraction stemmed deeper,
She knew he was a keeper.
Sunday 2nd July 2017 5:11 pm
Te amo tanto que me duele
You didn't get that, did you?
But can't you see it in my face
a love that aches my very soul
Like Mars, ' I'll catch a grenade for ya!'
but you must be Venus...do you not see
it is my will I am stuck in love?
'Te amo tanto que me duele!'
You gaze into my pupils and
seem oblivious to my amor
God free me from this dolor!
Sunday 11th June 2017 10:14 pm
Distance and time
Cruelly put asunder
You an indifferent girl
And I a self concious
Two decades later,
Lately ,I saw you
A mesmeric lady
With a son
And a daughter,
Full of life
In my cloud
Rang a bell
To a paradise
Change a hell.
"I know you exist!" smile
Still has power
Thursday 15th December 2016 2:13 pm
Eight o'clock looks better with blue tinted sunglasses.
The sunset is redder, the sea loses its grey,
People become mere shadows in the softening light.
It is calm.
I sit and wait for him.
Curling my bare feet into the sand.
Shadows catch their reflections in my eyes
Seeing only themselves and a lonely girl.
The waves melt away the metal casings of my heart;
Tuesday 11th October 2016 10:20 am
Unrequited love is the destruction of the heart
It is walking across an endless desert occupied with faded mirages that show you beauty like never before
Constantly consumed by its wonder, constantly consumed by the despair for your love for it
She is the mirage, you are the lonley aching fool in an endless desert
You are the one slowly suffocating by the boundless intesity of what you...
Tuesday 27th September 2016 5:03 pm
There is a war rallied between our hearts:
some people say love,
other people play love.
But when life becomes a game,
when words can only be spoken by characters,
when breath can only be projected by theatre
then I lose myself...so you lose me....and I risk losing you....
And the curtains fall shut -
And the dice stops rolling -
We lost the bet.
Tuesday 31st May 2016 1:33 am
I wish I could tell you anything
Anything you want to hear
But I don’t think you would listen to me
I don’t think you would believe me.
A never ending game of cat and mouse
A classic case of “will they, won’t they”
You can’t see what is happening between us
Or maybe this is all in my head.
That’s the struggle isn’t it?
Not being able to tell the differences
Sunday 15th May 2016 8:15 pm
I'm staying up tonight
To find that lucky star in the sky
But I think it fell in a black hole.
I’ve been searching
For the sun to come out
But it burned out years ago.
I was surrounded by such beauty
I could not take my eyes off of you
But I wasn’t enough to captivate you for long.
My heart used to beat for you out of time
You were like a flower that st...
Wednesday 11th May 2016 1:12 am
You blew across the sky
a bird, black against the cloud
your wings beating hard
the way I was beating too
And for a moment…
I felt so alive
You slipped through
grazing my sooty skies
these pearly stars
squealing in your wake
And for a moment…
I felt so alive
Was there something more
that we were supposed to do
some other experience
we should have expected to share
Thursday 3rd March 2016 11:06 pm
There, seated at one of the bleachers,
Far distant from me, nineteen meters.
There, a girl before you,
Like a piece of a broken tableau.
For me, it was likely,
A vision, pain with no remedy,
Loud laughs, so clear in view,
Nineteen meters away, such a milieu.
Just heartful days ago,
The pair of your eyes never forego,
What was seen in the sight of me,
Monday 9th November 2015 4:09 pm
I'm a pure example of what happens
When you chase something that's not chasing back
Maybe I didn't get the hint
Maybe I didn't see the picture
That me and you were just a silly fairy tale of mine.
I should have kept my mouth closed
Hold these sweet words behind my tongue
Let the poison sink in
And let the words kill me from within.
But of course I didn't
I had to take a chance
Thursday 22nd October 2015 4:56 am
I write things about you
I love to write things about you
I always want to write about you
Ever since I saw your smile
Feelings of hapiness begins to pile
Ever since I heard you laugh
My heart became familiar of this unknown "stuff"
I knew right then and there
This feeling will even get deeper
And then one unexpected day,
Our gaze met... Oh Hey!
My heart beats...
Tuesday 22nd September 2015 12:01 pm
Thursday 19th March 2015 1:06 am
You come to me when I least expect it,
As my thoughts, idle, spiral into the inky darkness which envelops me
Rising in a euphoria of hazy violet, unanchored, until you materialise, suspended above me,
Drawing them around you, immersing yourself in the haze, as you
Drown me in hazel and poison me with possibilities, each more fantastic than the last;
Tumbling into my thoughts, ...
Monday 29th December 2014 12:00 am
The friend I love
Sitting in my chair in front of the comp, eating an apple, an occasional chomp
Pictures of you, running through my mind, thinking of words, I cannot find
I can't help, picturing your face, your feminin beauty, elegance an grace
Eyes that shine, with sparkle and glee, I wish those eyes where looking at me,
Cheeks that glow, your radiant smile, please think of me, just o...
Tuesday 26th August 2014 12:21 am
Building a rockery
Robins’ nesting close
Stop work do not startle.
Stop for incoming worms
Love those birds.
Mouths to feed
Stopping with care and wonder.
Hen and Cock, working to ends
Chicks gaped ochre mouths
Cheeping, stop work, move away.
Worm after worm
Rock after rock.
Only rock is dead.
Lovers tiff, leaving permanently.
Friday 6th December 2013 3:19 pm
you’re cold, button up,
batten down the hatched glass
these mean talking ghosts offer
little anonymity to the marrowfat
of shoulder high memories
sister in all but time
an “a star” in the morning
yet the many delights,
ours but for the cleansed eyes
and thighs, came as you sounded
memory in your truth’s thunder
blackened through evi...
Saturday 24th August 2013 8:35 pm
This make-up’s dried upon my face,
gone cracked with age and wear.
I can’t remove this absurd mask.
You’ll never know how much I care.
The girl with pretty eyes will smile,
the clown, so sad, will sigh.
Another chance has passed away.
Another star lights the sky.
You see the clown and laugh at him,
I turn away and cry,
Tuesday 2nd April 2013 10:10 am
hear the sound of every rusted, blunted mace
as they greet and meet through gravity’s lack of grace,
each at thirty two point two,
the fateful rate of this heaving season
where fruits misplace a summer’s trust to kiss the dirt
and, where they fall, corrode and stall the wheels of love
for those we find untouchable
while yet our hearts may still enmesh, b...
Sunday 30th September 2012 10:27 am
not in God,
but in us,
in I and you,
what was lust
turned so quickly
to earth scorched
red as angry rust.
There ain't no God, Mister,
there ain't no God,
but those who believe
believe in what they must
until that final day
when boxed and earthed
we will return
ashes to ashes
and dust to dust.
Friday 3rd February 2012 12:42 am
Monday 9th January 2012 1:10 am
I have Aspergers' Syndrome - it's fairly normal for me in my own little world to become full-blown obsessed with the object of my desires, crave the unattainable and fantasise about being in bed with married men. But don't worry, I don't own a knife or gun (that's a lie, I'm a chef, 'cept the gun bit), and am certainly not dangerous... I'll find out for definite when the men in white coats aren...
Sunday 24th October 2010 7:07 pm
I was the reluctant lover
She was a Goddess divine
I was not as brave as a man should be
And so her heart was never mine
Oh, am I the fool of legend
Am I the only one
Who loved and lost as I never tossed
My hat in the ring till the girl was gone?
And as I look at the picture
Her face and smile come to mi...
Tuesday 29th June 2010 1:29 am