He asked me if I truly loved him
He asked me why I was scared
He asked me why did i care
I wanted to tell him :
I dont understand why i care but I do 
I wanted to tell him:
My little heart wont be able to take the love he craves 
I wanted to tell him :
Everything inside me was screaming , fighting to leave , to be liberated 
I wanted to tell him:
I wont be able to bear the weight of this commitment and this relationship
I wanted to tell him 
I may love him but its wrong for me , for us
I wanted to tell him:
The weight of our relationship will weigh us down
I wanted to tell him :
I cared for him but everyday , every moment i wished that i didn't 
I wanted to tell him:
Once everyday I relive our first kiss and wish that there was never an us
I wanted to tell him :
I wish I was strong enough to let him go
I wanted to tell him :
I wish he was strong enough to let me/us go
I wanted to tell him :
I wish that we had only remained friends 
I wanted to tell him :
I want to be able to live without him , to not think about him , to not are about him
I wanted to tell him so many things
But I only said 

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I said nothing . 
I pressed my lips against his and relived the momentary satisfaction of being complete.