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Pain

Everyone has their way to vent.

Let things go.

Dim the darkness inside.

Let the mind go.

 

When I was in pain I smoked till my vision was blurry.

Don't worry.

I'm only trying to get god in a hurry.

 

I would smoke till my eyes bleed red.

Lay onto my pillow with twisted fantasies of being dead.

Laying in a coffin, having wreaths of my name.

Mind racing wildly, driving along in different lanes.

 

When you feel pain you do stuff you normally wont.

But the painful reality of life is though.

Do you have a soul to confide in, when you need it the most?

 

Do you really have someone right besides you, who will share your pain.

Is there someone there unconditionaly with you, so the pain fades away?

 

You don't. Even your own shadow leaves you in darkness.

So that is far from the truth.

People will only come to live and breathe with you, aslong and you're doing good.

 

The minute they sense weakness in you, they drift away from you.

Till their memories are like poison in your blood stream.

So things are never the same for you.

 

You sometimes wish they never existed.

There ain't no perfect moments, like you would see in some pictures.

 

I used to smoke weed and hit the bottles like I'm trying to catch my breath.

Having visions of me in my final moments, before my eyes finally rest.

Having thoughts about the moment when my heart stops.

But no one can express a mothers pain, when her son drops.

 

I've had my fair share of pain through the course of 26 years of existence.

Like I have nothing left to give.

How could one soul handle all this pressure and pain.

One day the soul has the give.

 

The soul has to crack to be blown apart.

Then and only then will the soul drift to the sky above.

Once the heart beat stops.

 

Pain is a terrible thing to keep within you.

Fortunately, I've had certain things happen,

That brought life back in me.

An angel with broken wings, found me broken.

And fixed me.

Whole again.

But how much time do I have, before I lose this blessing.

So i have to be strong and carry myself on my own.

Home is where the heart is,

I'm shining brighter then ever now, I'm finally home.

 

I once saw a quote:

"My heart is so small it's almost invisible. How can you place such big sorrows In it?"

But I heard a voice.

"Your eyes are even smaller yet they behold the world" 

 

I remind myself of this each and every day.

To see the beauty I have in my life.

Play your cards right, and take your heart with you.

But also take your mind, to stabilise and carry you.

 

Pain is a horrible thing.

It can destroy nations in a flash.

No force can overcome pain.

You can only do that yourself....

◄ Vengeance

If I wrote a note to God ►

Comments

Do.RoThy

Fri 29th Nov 2019 11:01

I do agree brightside.....small things do matter, but they only appear small.
Stay happy n blessed!!

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Hamzah Aslam

Thu 28th Nov 2019 23:59

Do.RoThy I'm grateful for the blessings I have in my life no matter how big or small! Sometimes it's the small simple things that generally have the biggest impact. But thank you for your comments.

Robert never a true word said. Strength through suffering. What dont kill you only makes you stronger.

And Po

That's what I'm trying to show, that I'm a average human. Who felt like the worlds ended yet I'm still here alive and embracing life!!

Do.RoThy

Thu 28th Nov 2019 15:18

Breathless read!! Painful reality....unconditional love flows romantically..... May you be blessed with an extremely loving partner till eternity. Everything has an end, so does pain, much has been endured, just a little remains, after which god will change the game, happiness shall trace you faster than the pain, love will grip you more than pain, happy tears will blurr your vision and nothing else will ever stand between them. It's just a few miles left, keep going right, don't ever turn left. The angel is standing with you till eternity. Smile and just love. N be happy!!!

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