I was never crazy about the sacrifices 

and definitely think she’d go on 

a little long during 

the Tuesday sermons 

 

but it was the quality of connection 

I felt was lacking in my life

you just don’t meet people

of that sort on the outside

 

of course there’ll be certain things

I’ll miss-

ice cream, situation comedies, condominiums

 

but I was missing 

the meaning in my life

even though I knew it was all ridiculous

all of it

 

I looked into the mirror 

and said, “you’re sort of a ridiculous person, yourself” 

and that was a relief