It's back

Fingers twitch

Eyes wont focus

Im shaking

I want it...I need it...

The craving...

An addiction that I'll never be free from

I kid myself thinking I've overcome it...

It always returns

If I give in the pain will subside, but the shame will haunt me

I know I must resist...

But

My blood, like thousands of worms struggling to break through to the surface

It hurts...

...I need it...

...help...make it stop..

make my mind stop...