Daydreaming of What Could No Longer Be
Too often I lose myself
contemplating which way is the best.
I consider each technique's effects and attempt to create the physical feeling associated with each scenario by painting a vivd image of what my bodily reaction may be.
It's painful to know I think of such pain.
But too often I lose myself
fantasizing of the sensation my body'd endure by my Soul's abandonment of the Flesh.
I imagine my thoughts disintegrating and my liveliness retiring.
My Heart aches knowing my Mind wanders to such painful daydreams.
But moments like these makes it hard to distinguish whether following my Heart or following my Mind is most plausible.