live your life 

in a deep state of uncertainty 

 

nightly

slaughtered by a thousand

 

doubts lined up 

in artillery squadrons 

 

on the furrows 

of the brow 

 

hormones 

echo through the morning 

 

ricocheting 

through plumbing

 

search for survivors

won’t be called off for another eight hours

 

still time left

to get in and out

 

hope wells up in a panic

now here comes the calm

 

on the worried 

face of god