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I Watched You?

 

So you wanted us to meet by four on that fateful Wednesday ,

You said it was my choice to meet with you or stay away,
 

You said to give you a chance as you wanted to be true and to explain, 

You said all you wanted to do was love me and not cause any pain,
 

You said that you loved me deeply and you were in this for life,

You said you were sorry for all the tears, heart ache and strife, 

 

So I actually came by two and stayed higher up the beach,

I watched you come early but stayed out of site and reach,
 

I watched you as you stared out at the ocean so deep and so blue,

I watched you and wondered if you would lie or choose to be true,
 

I watched you as children kicked balls up and down the shore,

I watched you as I contemplated watching you for a few hours more,

 

I watched you as I considered how you had lied so often to me,

I watched you as I thought of how my heart would now be free,
 

I watched you as I remembered how you would make me feel,

I watched you as I wondered if any of it was even real,
 

I watched you and I got angry all over again, 

I watched you and I remembered the hurt and the pain,
 

I watched you and I tried to figure out your own gain,

I watched you and concluded your love was seasonal like the rain,
 

I watched you and decided yes that my heart I could train ,

I watched you and planned you would always remember my name,
 

I watched you as the sky turned dark at the twentieth hour,

I watched you as I felt a renewed sense of inner power,
 

I watched you and I actually felt peace and light ,

I watched you as I got up my world now once again alight ,
 

I called your name as I came walking to you,

I called you as I saw your tears that I knew were not true,
 

I called you as you came running to hold onto me,

I called you though I knew I had plans to make myself free,

 

So though I watched you wait over six hours just for me,

But as I watched I saw we were never really meant to be,

 

So I decided why not play your little deceptive game, 

As I silently promised to make you feel your own brand of pain. 

 

"I believe in love and all it stands for." MayahRose?

 

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Mayah ROSE

Mon 13th Aug 2018 23:42

@Taylor, Thank you for your lovely comments?

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Taylor Crowshaw

Mon 13th Aug 2018 08:12

Fantastic Mayah you kept me hooked until the very end. Your poem expressed the uncertainties we all feel at times when faced with choices in relationships.
Thank you
Taylor ?

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