Will I always be this hollow
If I could just sleep forever
And dream of the days before she left here
I think happiness would drown me alive
But right now I'm just the colours in the rain

Has anyone ever felt this way
Or is it just me here drowning upon the sheep
Trying to find my way out of the knives lust 
I think happiness would drown me alive
If you are back in my arms

I'm scared of the day when 
I wake up and I'm 26 my promised would be over
I'll have no more excuses to keep my suicidal thoughts at bay
I think happiness would drown me alive
Melancholy and broken that's what I am today

I'll try to stay alive after 26
but I'm not making any more promises
I'm too good at keeping them
I think happiness would drown me alive
I'm better off talking to myself I surely do miss her