I don’t know how to explain the sadness I feel after you leave

Emptiness is the closest word

I feel like half of my heart is gone

Struggling to beat properly

Like even though a piece is missing it is still much heavier than before

Unlike my heart, my stomach is full

Close to exploding

I never want to eat

Because what’s the point if you’re not around

My head also feels like it is going to explode

It won’t stop spinning

My mind keeps running in circles trying to catch the demons that mock me

They mock me for letting you go

I shouldn’t have let you go

Sad part is I knew that before you were gone

How can I forgive myself?

I handed you back to the people who broke you from the start

I gave you over to your demons and don’t even ask to come along

How is that love?

All I want is to make you the happiest woman in the world

But instead I keep putting you back in the hell that you came from