Settling with being

By myself

But not lonely

To many trial runs

More than enough practice

Experienced enough
To know what I can handle

Open an published

letting one listen to my audible

past times,mistakes, struggles,and pain

Having a pretty face, good heart, steel mind, fashion identity,slim,sexy body means nothing even though it's attached to my brain

I think back as God allowed these persons into my life

A distraction and experience

But emotional time and care, wasted and not appreciated

No angel I am

I am all in and not halfway in

Not giving enough time to test the water

Its tap

Should've already known

They are no alkaline water

They can't be baptised of the damage they have done to me

As I can only pray

An ask God to heal me