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self love

I can’t be what you want me to be
My appetite for you comes and goes
I try to be what you want
I try to be what you need
But sometimes you are just too much.
My knees go weak when I try to carry you on my shoulders 
I let you down becomes a familiar tune to you
I just want you to get better
You need to get better,
Please just be better.
You come in many forms but better doesn’t happen to be one of them,
Why.. are you.. so weak?
Pick yourself up, pull yourself together
You will make it out of this okay.
Lifting, higher. 
I see you overcoming
But wait,
You.. just fell down.. again.
I am trying to work with you here
You need to work with me too.
Stop breaking your mirrors
You need your mirrors to see what I see in you
If “confidence” was a pill, I would let you overdose 
Look at yourself please 
Stop hiding away
You have more good days then bad days
I’ll look past your bad days as long as you smile today
Laughter is blessing the air
You actually went to all of your classes today
I actually  see you hanging out with that new guy? 
And wow?! You ate a whole 3 meals, cleaned your room, did that essay, smiled at that jerk from psych class, went out to just feel the sun-
Oh wait, how could you?!
There you go again
You’ve been in bed for days 
Don’t you miss your friends?
When was the last time you actually ate a real meal?
You’ve worn that shirt for 3 days now.
How could you?
I AM TRYING TO HELP YOU
Why can’t I help you?
Who knew trying to help yourself could be this hard

L.O.N.E.L.Y ►

Comments

Big Sal

Mon 2nd Apr 2018 17:37

Beware of narcissistic people, and always be aware of your own capabilities. ?

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Cynthia Buell Thomas

Sat 31st Mar 2018 12:38

iesha, that has the 'ring of truth' pulsing through the whole work. And the ending is excellent. The pain of 'self-help' failing is even harder to bear than failing to 'help someone else'. And, for me, the title did not 'give away' the ending either. Altogether, very interesting, and cleverly written.

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