teacher tells me to imagine the gunshots are just something silly

like a clown knocking over a priceless vase because he is clumsy

and there is one now, one vase down    haha

and then another maybe this one is a silly man

walking in to a glass door that crashes and smashes         haha

then I lie very still and don’t breathe

don’t breathe

because if we breathe they might knock more vases over

silly clowns          haha

if we breathe they might walk in to more glass doors

silly men              haha

so I don’t breathe

and something is running in to my mouth

so I close my mouth

and don’t breathe

and I look over at my friend

and she is not breathing

and I am so proud of her

because she is really good at pretending

then the teacher howls and its loud its loud

and everyone is pretending now

everyone is pretending now

everyone is pretending now

everyone is pretending now