Do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and wonder what makes you different? I'm not the smartest, prettiest, funniest etc. But that one person made you realize you have a great personality and you're weird, fun, and dorky and he got you to start to love yourself and really accept and enjoy who you are. He brought out the person in you who wasn't afraid of being herself and enjoyed the little things and took time to appreciate life. Now I look at myself and feel cold and alone. I want the other me back, the happy me, the one that was always smiling, enjoying the sunlight, the smell of the rain. Every time I try and find her, I just get overwhelmed with pain and sadness and she retreats. Eventually I think she will surround herself with stone walls and not come out again because she was too happy, she let her guard down, she tasted love and warmth and she never wants to be hurt again.