I loved you with all my heart,

But you fucked me over and over.

I cared about you,

I kept you in my mind like a soul in a body,

But did not know

that body was a prison.

I would do anything for you

But you would not even think of me.

I tried to make it all stop

But you were just way too contagious.

I woke up in the middle of night just to look at you

But little I knew I fell in love with you.

The way you dressed,

The way you carried yourself,

I belonged to you and you belonged to me.

For me it was love at first sight

But you were blind.

I did all I could do to save myself

But little I knew it was not poison but disease

 that I did not even notice.

I never felt like this with anyone

Because I never felt you before.

I did things with you

Because It felt right,

And ended up finding my Mr. right.

I tried to forget you,

But the dose of love was too strong

 that I was addicted to you.

I loved you like nothing else existed beside you,

But to you I was just a can of soda,

Trash after empty unless you recycled.

Thought of myself that I was nothing,

But I focused on myself and found out I was universe that yet needs to be figured.

I can’t just stop loving you just because you can’t reciprocate,

You fool I fell in love with you not because I expect you to love me but because

I loved your company,

I loved your mentality,

 I loved everything about you,

So why won’t I spend the rest of my life with you.

I saw the worthiness of you in my eyes,

Little I knew you were wearing contact lenses.

I confessed my love for you in the night of horror,

Told you things when I was not conscious,

You were in my mind even when everything was not clear,

But my love was strong that it did not even matter.

But I suppose you thought my love was fake to be even cared about,

You did not know that I could care less about that.

I did some things not to show you

But to show myself that you were not worth it.

I was wrong baby,

 I think I’m too afraid to forget you,

 I won’t find someone like you ever

Because there is no one like you!

I know you fell in love many times,

Had your heart broken many times,

and went through many harsher times.

But baby I fell in love for the first time in my life,

Could not tell if the love was my punishment or nirvana.

Every time I meet you,

I feel relaxed yet I am terrified.

I don’t know why!

Maybe I am too afraid to lose you.

You don’t even know how I feel,

Yet I still care about you.

We met so many times,

Know how we taste,

Yet we are still nothing but strangers.