It's hard for me to sleep sometimes

because I'm thinking of what goes wrong.

You should know that there are people 

who have resorted to believing that their life is over,

or believing things will never get better,

people who don't believe in happiness.

And you know what?

They are not wrong.

Happiness is for fairytales or dreams come true.

That does not mean you cannot be happy.

But it means that when there are times of dreams coming true,

things don't stay that way.

Your first love is one happy blur,

but heartbreak can only come from that.

And some people can't get away from that,

and that is why there is so much depression, cutting, anxiety, suicide, 

and disbelief in happiness.

Peter said to Wendy,

"Think of the happiest things, and you can fly,"

think of the happiest things, and you can fly so high that you can touch the stars.

For that moment,

but it isn't happiness that controls most of our lives,

just a lucky, select few.

Our lives are overrun by other emotions,

not nessicarily by sadness,

some are controlled by anger,

some by fear,

or hopelessness,

or truth,

or a combination of some,

Everyone expieriences true sadness in their life.

Not brief, momentary sadness, like when someone dies,

but sadness caused by something that even I can't describe.

Life is not this happy place that everyone makes it out to be.