So.many thoughts .... so.much pain

So.many memories ... so.much guilt 

It is only when they are gone that we realize what is missing 

I just want to talk to you one more time... see you and hug one more time but I can't 

I.am.missing my grounding rod my technical advisor 

I.am missing my mentor and instructor 

My fishing buddy and and hunting partner 

Those that pushed and guided ...and misguided 

But thru pain comes guidance and love for those that look to me for guidance...silly people

I WILL channel this into a positive 

I will take over where you ended but only with your help 

Or is this just another alters world from a glass bottom