This place is eating me alive, outside I appear fine. My physique is built to hide what's buried inside.
These thoughts, eat away my soul day by day. The more I think, the more I hurt. It's been such a long time since I've actually lived. I feel like I'm just breathing, my world has been collapsed and I don't know how to rebuild the foundation. The agony is unbearable I wish it would leave me be, it's buried deep inside of me, a parasite that drains my emotions and well being. I have not found a form of medication to ease the pain. The more I "live" the more the parasite sucks out of me. My mind floods with dark, sinister thoughts. Moving past this state of psychosis is impossible. The emptiness inside has consumed who I once was. I'm lost on my path of life and I can't see a light or any signs to guide me to the clear. I feel like I'm losing contact with everything I care so dearly about. I feel the last bit of sanity and stability fading away. I've learned how to cope with it, but this disease has become so strong it becomes hard to fight it.