Then and Now
My head was full of empty thoughts that rattled ‘tween my ears.
My heart was full of jumbled clots of emotion that fueled tears.
My hands were cold and weak, but they still pushed away my fears.
But what was there to fight when I was the only one that was here?
I used to say I’d rather numb myself instead of feel.
I used to let illusion take the spot of what was real.
Within days of using this to live, I thought it was revealed;
That a life of lies made in my mind would keep the danger sealed.
But then, you came and suddenly all of my walls fell down.
In mixed emotions I watched you proudly burn them to the ground.
You’ve left me feeling vulnerable with all my thoughts unbound,
But you stayed with me and helped me see what I’m capable of now.