Without you I cannot imagine myself;

I lived an unreal past

that was part of the soul

I thought loved me

 

I sailed on the river of your lies,

of everything that you said you felt

 

I made up a mirage of tender caresses

where you were the delight of all my senses

 

Among thorns of silence I landed;

tears blinded me and without pause

and swiftly my way became ashes

 

Without looking back I keep silent

hoping to have the right to address my laments,

I find myself lost without a vessel,

without illusion, without a lifeline

I fall into lethargy

 

Not everything ends with a goodbye!

 

You're a shadow that springs up from my past,

that urges me to seek what I never had

 

You are the shadow that assaults my soul,

that flares up on its own,

and though you are detached,

it invades me cruelly and pettily

 

You are a voracious shadow

that impairs my sanity and my motives

 

Now I understand that it’s impossible to forget you,

one minute could change my world

and not enclose this fire that burns me

 

Did you forget that I was once your woman

that I sailed between your back and your chest

immersed in the darkness of my room?

 

And it is in this hell, of useless chimera,

where my lamentations are felt.

©Noris Roberts