The sun peeks through the blinds and gently grazes my eyes..another day has risen. I lay there for a minute, going over my dreams, like a slideshow in my head. I dreamt of you again last night..why do I torture myself? The mind is a powerful thing and I am unable to control it. The night’s I do not dream of you..which is seldom.. I try to replay in my mind what I might have done differently, so maybe I can repeat it. I want you to disappear from my thoughts and stop appearing in my dreams. I can’t even escape you through sleep. What am I to do? Why does this feel like the hardest thing I have been through? I want to run away in my mind, I can’t even escape you there..I need to settle this storm that is raging in my head. I am lost..and nothing makes it better. The hole is so big it is swallowing me up and there is nothing I can do about it..