Oh, bollocks! This is really hard!

This 'being real' is really shit!

I cannot hide behind my guard,

I do not like it just one bit!

It makes me sweat and palpitate!

I have to trust a load of strangers!

It makes me look at my mistakes

and stare right in the face of danger!

I cannot run, I cannot hide

as if I do, I will forever.

I cannot sit back on my pride -

this is a case of now or never!

This bloody process is confusing!

I’m not sure that I’ll ever know

if I am winning or I’m losing

you say I should just let it go.

It’s not about me getting somewhere

I should accept me as I am

and realise I’m already there

(the true me though and not the sham).

This process - bollocks, hard and shit

is normal, you say this is true.

It shifts, frustrates but this is it

as long as you have faith in you

it can also be awe inspiring -

you can know your strength and worth!

And over time you’ll be admiring

all the layers you unearth.