The hate keeps fueling the fire,

The sadness in my heart continues to grow.

I need a ray of sunshine melting my hate as a hot sun would with snow.

The darkness over comes the light, but will the light ever shine bright enough?

The laughter of people brings jealousy into my heart.

Why can't I have laughter?

Why can't I have love and happiness?

I hear a whisper in my dreams " The strength of a man lies in how well he deals with solitude"

Is Odin testing me?

By the fate of the norns, my life was already decided.

I will not run.

Father, This life you gave me is a test in how well a man deals with hardship, the greatest gift you can give.

That tells me you think highly of me, and in that, I find my strength to move on.