As much try shaking off

 odd feeling can’t avoid

 

On face seems normalcy

  deep within I’m paranoid

 

All evident brave fronts

and donned blasé guise

 

Reflect chinks in armor

of societal compromise

 

Frayed old compulsions

often daunt and afflict

 

Daubed in hues darker

sane rationality restrict

 

Old emotional stockpile

intrinsically stays stuck

 

Robs active dynamism

to push in putrid muck

 

If one could switch off

and recollection efface

 

Carve new subsistence

 another avatar embrace