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Hedging Bets

"Um... (sigh)...I feel, and this is just how I feel, but sometimes it just seems that...and I don't know if this is more about me than you but...it just seems that... (clammy)...do you think that....it might.....we might....I mean, correct me if I'm wrong, but I...uh, I...I may be way off the mark, you know....well, I hope you know....I wouldn't say anything if I didn't care....if I wasn't passionate about it.....about us......what I mean is that.....this is just my opinion so.....so, please don't take it the wrong way....it's just that I, uh....I......no.....no, no, that's not what I meant....that's not it..... (flush)....you've misunderstood, please....please, just listen to me....no....no, I....I just wanted to say how I feel....my perspective, you know.....I'm not saying my perspective is right.....I just wanted to discuss it...be honest....I was just trying to help.....do the right thing.....let's just talk about this.....noooo, you've taken it the wrong way.....no...I mean....no....well, yes.....maybe....I don't know.....maybe....maybe you're right......ok.....ok you're right.....I shouldn't have brought it up. ...yes.....yes....it's my fault....I'm sorry.....yes....please, let's just forget about it....I'm sorry.....I'm sorry.... (SHIT)."

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James Roper

Thu 14th Aug 2014 10:20

Brilliant. I enjoyed it very much. Your liberal use of ellipses invokes a clear sense of anxiety and frustration. Nice job!

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Ged the Poet

Fri 11th Jul 2014 14:09

Natalie - you have a wonderful blog of work. So much in such a short time. Very good poetry.

I'm sure sometimes in our life we have all wanted to get things right, not offend and then 'sit on the fence'. I can't really see you with this monologue... a politician maybe...
(I just get a vision of Tony Blair when I read this) ;)

'God knows I try' is also a little marvel.
Great works.

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Candice Reineke

Fri 11th Jul 2014 02:58

Haha this is great! Everyone has had a conversation like this, right? Feelings...hesitations...misunderstandings...and some of it while on the toilet no doubt ;) By the way, thanks for your comments on "Write Your Own Lines" and "Don't Put Me in Your Box".

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