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BLANKETY BLANK SLATE (directed infant rage 2012)

This IS a poem. Just add line-breaks.

The sweet-wrappers of a bitter childhood still blow after me, with the tinkling sound of Angel wings; not trying to catch up, bringing tidings of great joy, but curious to see what my enduring negativity will yet do to me. Rage puzzles Angels; born, angelic and loved - to Angel mothers (did you not know?) they need no father, save He that, by definition (and redolent of today) they may never know. But yet they are       perfect love, knowing nothing of infant rage, juvenile anger, mature fury and aging bile. What irony that a loving God gifted me free-will, but did not read the box! He must have known I could not, yet, exercise it? Free-will is not for life, and only for that one Christmas. For the non-divine, there is a terrible post-partum hiatus. Until I had completed the social parts of my brain - this being long after the rest of it had registered impotent, unlimited spleen, at being helpless and bereft of help - I was to be trapped in a waggling mass, of ridiculous configuration (apparently in His image!) Like a cat with a tin tied to its tail, I dragged my reluctant cognition forward through the Slough of Respond, un-alleviated by alliteration’s distraction, behaving badly to all stimuli. Conceived of my parent’s personal war (during a lull in the bombing) my first awareness: war; I took my cue, and forfeited the first frame. Thereafter: ‘foul’ was my watchword; I was snookered for life. What was my Angels’ take on all this? What did they report back? What did my ‘personal God’ make of my plight? As yet I cannot tell, but the day is fast approaching when, if the afterlife materialises, I shall have all the answers – and still be unable to tell. But fie! Word is, I shall have a BRAND NEW TIN, lacquered in factory freshness. And life will be exactly as hinted-at in the scriptures, though I don’t think there is anything therein about heavenly free-will. How annoying.

infant ragefree will

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barrie singleton

Sun 27th Oct 2013 22:33

Memory returns! This 'poem' was written out of pure spleen! (How surprising!) The opening is the clue. I had just read some pretentious offering - hence the pretention of my opening.
Oh dear, I had better do some shame.

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barrie singleton

Sun 27th Oct 2013 22:29

Cracking comment Gromit! Even your critique is pure poetry Harry. Re sympathy: I am an odd cove in that my psychology does not engender chemistry; I see everythng in shades of black, but depression eludes me. The cure cost me a lot of money but it was money well spent - assuming one wants to be out of step with almost everyone almost all of the time. Cheers.

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Harry O'Neill

Sun 27th Oct 2013 22:20

barrie,

I can`t tell if this is actually asking for sympathy.

But how can anyone sympathise with a guy who can write brilliant stuff like; I dragged my reluctant cognition forward through the slough of respond` and `conceived of my parents personal war (during a lull in the bombing)`...whatever it was, you`re obviously cured.

(Re `His image`...millions of us are waggling masses of ridiculous configuration...come down off that snooker table and join us)

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barrie singleton

Sun 27th Oct 2013 17:45

Spufford is new to me - hail Google! What joy to see that he undermines Bishop Dawkins! I feel deeply complimented by your comments Dave.
Many thanks. I am convinced that perceptions at birth - common across all mankind - predispose us to the CERTAINTY of absolute power 'out there'. Only a high degree of maturation brings release from bondage. Increasingly, we die immature; schooling (institutionalising) sees to that.

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Dave Bradley

Sun 27th Oct 2013 17:14

Fascinating. Unusual. Compelling. Had to read it again out loud, slowly. The perfect poetic companion to my recent reading, Francis Spufford's 'Unapologetic'.

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