A sleepless night brought this ....

 

WELL DO YA?

 

DO I LIKE MYSELF?

SOMETIMES.

DO I LIKE MY LIFE?

YES.

DO I DESERVE

WHAT I’VE GOT

IN MY LIFE?

I DON’T KNOW.

I DON’T CARE.

I’VE GOT IT.

ITS MINE.

BUT DON’T TRY TO TAKE MY LIFE.

DON’T TRY TO CHANGE MY LIFE.

NOT NOW.

IT’S TOO LATE.

AM I PROUD

OF MYSELF

AND MY LIFE?

OF THE THINGS I HAVE PRODUCED

IN MY LIFE?

YES.

OF THE THINGS I HAVE DONE

IN MY LIFE?

SOME OF IT.

MY BOYS.

MY BOYS.

THEY WERE THE TURNING POINT

IN MY LIFE.

A REASON TO JOIN

THE REST.

I HAD TO BE THE BEST

I COULD BE.

THE FRUIT OF MY LOINS

WERE

A CALMING EFFECT.

THEY WERE A REASON

FOR ME TO RESPECT

MY LIFE.

THEY WERE THE REASON

FOR ME TO EXPECT

 IN MY LIFE,

A CONSEQUENCE.

TO ALL THE ACTIONS

I CHOSE.

FROM ALL THE PROBLEMS

I POSED,

FOR OTHERS,

NOT FOR ME.

SEE.

I DIDN’T CARE.

LIKE IT, LUMP IT.

LOVE IT, THUMP IT.

ALL THE SAME TO ME.

ONLY ME.

ARROGANT ME.

I COULD FINALLY SEE,

THAT RESPOSIBILITY

COULD BE FOR ME.

BECAUSE MY TWO BOYS

WERE BIGGER THAN ME,

THEY NEEDED ME TO BE

A DAD.

THEIR DAD.

SOMEWHERE

FOR TRUST TO LIE.

SOMEWHERE

FOR TIME TO PASS BY.

IN SECURITY,

SURELY

I COULD DO THAT?

SIMPLE.

ALL I DID WAS

RECALL WHAT I HAD

WITH MY DAD

AND WE COULDN’T GO WRONG.

MY LIFE DID THOUGH.

COMPLACENCY CALLED.

AN UNWELCOME FRIEND.

IT SIGNALLED THE END

OF MY LIFE.

THAT’S WHAT I RECKONED.

EMPTINESS BECKONED,

AND MY BOYS WERE LOST.

TOO MUCH OF A COST

I THOUGHT

SO, I FOUGHT.

AND WON.

I WASN’T GOING TO LOSE MY SONS.

I WASN’T GOING TO LET THEM GO

NOT WITHOUT THEM KNOWING

AT LEAST

WHAT THEY MEANT TO ME.

SO I ASK MYSELF

EVERY DAY.

DO I LIKE MYSELF?

HOPEFULLY THE ANSWER IS

YES

IF IT ISN’T,

THEN I ADJUST MYSELF.

BECAUSE

I LIKE MY LIFE

NOW.

I’VE FOUND MY WIFE BRNICE

NOW.

I’VE FOUND REAL LOVE

NOW.

I’VE FOUND MY BOYS

AGAIN

AND MY LIFE

IS GOOD TO ME.

BETTER PERHAPS

THAN I DESERVE.

BUT,

YOU GUESSED IT.

I DON’T CARE.

BECAUSE

IT IS THE WAY IT IS.

AND I HAVE WORKED HARD

TO MAKE IT SO.

NOW I HAVE MY GRANDKIDS.

A NEW CHAPTER IN

MY EXISTENCE.

THANKS

TO MY PERSISTENCE.

A NEW REASON

TO BE PROUD.

AND UNDERSTAND LOVE.

SO,

DO I DESERVE

TO BE HAPPY?

I THINK SO.

AM I HAPPY?

YES.

LIFE IS GOOD.

VERY GOOD.

AM I A LUCKY

LUCKY

MAN?

OH YES.

 

© By: - Pete Slater.   2013.