I had to sit back and ask myself, 

“What is gonna make me happy?”

I could stare at the mirror for days before I came up with a decent sentence to say. 

“Lean back to you? Find another mattress to cling on with someone to seduce?”

See?

Nothing came out new and that’s how I knew. 

Stop what I was doing, so the circle I’m renewing would break off in two. 

Break off from you.

And I know it sounds foolish, but if I stop to see my movements, I can look back to form a rubric on how to avoid this nuisance.