What if I swiped the other way, what if I said no, what if I never saw you again

What if I didn’t take you back, what if I believed her instead

She was right afterall.

I thought I’d won because you came back, even if I knew I was second choice

Even if I was insulted, humiliated, cheated, broken, devastated

Still I thought I’d won.

How?

I chose to listen to you because the lies felt kinder

The ugly, hard truth was loud though and it was tormenting me mercilessly

I couldn’t keep myself fooled, I couldn’t force to be dumb and blind

Truth shone the brightest light into my already sore eyes

Oh how sore they were, how tired, how dry