In silence, I sit and ponder
Haunted by choices I've made
Wondering if life's path would have differed
If I'd chosen otherwise, would I have escaped the pain that clings?

Time passed, and I weighed each step
Pros and cons, but the cons wouldn't relent
Even so, their loudness could not make me resist you.
Yet, your gentle gaze silenced my mind
A doorway to a heartache that won't subside.

Now, in empty spaces, thoughts of you reside
Regret's heavy weight presses upon my chest
My mind rushes to moments my heart sank
Wondering how I let feelings deceive me, let you in.

But then I remember your gentle voice,  your warm presence
The calm they bring, my heart's wild choice
Anxiety fades, and I'm again left to ponder
How, in your absence, you still calm my senses

A fleeting dream that I'll forever chase.