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my triumph rises out of the ocean
on the tip of my melting iceberg

peaking through Prussian blue crashing waves
  and alabaster spume.

buoyed along the coast of the arctic
all joy drifts out to sea, freezing.

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my trauma drags me below
drowning under the ash-grey sky

thunderstorms wake me at night
lightning flashes replaying the scene

screams sink into my dreams
shaking and sweating while i shriek

my trauma anchors me to polar shores
as i lay in a heap shivering on the floor

escaping the introspection stalking my sleep
i sink six Valium pills in a glass of Jameson

dissolving on the icy rocks
as i drift into drowsy submission

passing out cold in fetal position
unjarring as the bell rings -
                      it is finished