when i was 11, 

i wanted to be 20. 

i was too old for my own good.

sat with adults, talked like adults, ate like adults

i turn 21 in 4 months and i think there might be nothing i want more than to be 11 again.

when me and my cousins were equals. 

life has always been difficult for me, 

but it was okay at 11,

because i was 11.