Rictus
(music: "Return 2" - Max Richter)
Fear -
that something called out in front of you
the day before the day
you called yourself desperate
in trying
to find
the voice
for all the silent screams
you gave away in front of mirrors
since you never cry alone
and you will always be there
for yourself
the perfect reflection
of a rictus
one only you have seen on stage
the perfect absence
of tragedy
one only you have laughed at
while wiping tears
sketched onto the veins of your eyes
bloodshot
tired
of lies shadowing each other
in the vastness of your mind
all walled up in spaces
alleged
believed
And you just return to
the day before the day
when that something called out in front of you
was fear
of fear..