If I Relapse?

If I relapse it’s death for me 
If I relapse it’s another scar I can’t erase 
My February blues is more of a midnight 
So I’ll call you when my demons are quiet 

Would it kill you to say you care 
Goddamn I’m lost inside my mind
I don’t know how to swim 
So call this drowning above water 

Damn this rainy season
Has me think death as an answer 
When I know better 

So I’ll call you when my demons are quiet
My February blues is more of a midnight 
If I relapse it’s another scar i can’t erase 
If I relapse it’s death for me